Holden is not doing well in preschool. Like, at all.
Almost every day he has had serious trouble following instructions and obeying, and then today he got his behavior card turned to "Boo-Hoo Blue," which is as bad as it gets, for trying to cut a kid with scissors! What?! He is a sweet kid who is kind and compassionate to others. He got sent to the office, and told me that when the administrator asked if he was ready to obey, he honestly responded, "No, not yet." Hearing this kinda made my blood boil. Who is this kid who could care less if he gets in trouble? I mean, I know we've had an obedience battle at home since the day he turned two, but I remember being absolutely mortified as a kid to be called out and get in trouble. Holden is not me. And from what I hear (from Ryan), he is a whole lot like his Dad as a child.
I have done a lot of crying the past two days, and even more praying. I was so hopeful for a good day today, especially after reading the story of Saul's transformation to Paul with Holden during breakfast. How Jesus changed him. And we prayed together all morning. And I gave him four spankings before school even started.
So I feel like I'm at a loss. I am giving each day, each moment to the Lord, letting Him tell me exactly what to do. His consequences today are new and more severe than ever before (in room all day with no toys, spankings, no treats like honey on his yogurt, even his favorite toy thrown away!) And I've received a lot of good words from friends. This one from my Elevate friend, Jessica Cash, was especially good:
Consider this: God is a perfect parent and even his children don't obey.